Love Poem to my Scoliosis

By Courtney LeBlanc

 

O crooked spine, o curved

skeletal frame, you grew

an extra vertebra and curved

to the left, refused gravity’s

downward pull. You send me

to the ER annually, seeking

syringes filled with drugs

to stop your frantic spasms,

the grip you know only

to tighten. Gave yourself

a pretty name – scoliosis –

and caused me to cry when you

were discovered at sixteen:

too late to correct, too late

to stop your sideways march.

O compressed spinal cord,

you send messages to my

fingertips – electric and

tingling. You hold one hip

higher, pull the same shoulder

down, attempting a tango

between body parts, the muscles

in the middle stuck in a crushing

embrace. The knobs of my

spine turned to the left,

a lopsided ladder for my lover’s

hands to climb.  And how you

bend out half my ribs while

crushing the other side, the wide

breath I pull in to fill you, to ease

me through the stiffness and ache

you bring me most days. O twisted

bones, o curved frame – I call you

beloved, I call you beautiful.

I call you mine.

 

Courtney LeBlanc is the author of “Beautiful & Full of Monsters” (Vegetarian Alcoholic Press), and chapbooks “All in the Family” (Bottlecap Press) and “The Violence Within” (Flutter Press). She has her MBA from University of Baltimore and her MFA from Queens University of Charlotte. She loves nail polish, wine, and tattoos. Read her publications on her blog www.wordperv.com, and follow her on Twitter @wordperv and Instagram @wordperv79

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